I know I have a lot of weird "get rich" plans and somehow I never seem to see them through but this time I know I will persevere. So you're wondering what I'm doing.
I am making a magazine. Oh, yes. A magazine. I'm making a Cosplay/Lolita/Gothic magazine. But before I have the money to make a magazine we're making a website first. I use we're because I already have members that are as dedicated to this magazine/website as I am.
Yes, I have a lawyer, a photographer (a good one at that), a website designer, a writer (or 2), and me. (Though I'm probably the laziest one out of all of us)
So, what do you guys think? Do you think if we make a website than magazine on how to cosplay/make a cosplay/how to put makeup on kinda thing it'll work? Well, it's a try.
oh, and happy early birthday to chito and antonio. <3
Tuesday (Halloween): I nearly choked to death. No, seriously. I really nearly did. Wednesday : Got into a car accident (I'm alive or I wouldn't be writing this post) I couldn't make it to my 6:00 interview at Banana Republic. Thursday : Chased down the Banana Republic people telling them I want the job. (But not like a desperate stalker.) Got the job within 5 minutes. (They said I had a customer friendly face) Friday : I realized I LOST MY WALLET.
Saturday is winding down and hopefully my bad week will end by today. On the other hand, I am hired at the Great Mall Banana Republic. The store will officially open to the public on November 12, 2006.
Ex-Jobs: Little Caesar Round Table
Current Jobs: Berkeley Farmers Market (Saturday's from 10:00 a.m. - 3:30 p.m.) Banana Republic (the schedule is "eh") Misc. Cleaning for money
A quote from my favorite TV series in the entire world.
Dr. Cameron: I'm uncomfortable about sex. Dr. Robert Chase: Well, we don't have to talk about this... Dr. Cameron: Sex COULD kill you. Do you know what the human body goes through when you have sex? Pupils dilate, arteries constrict, core temperature rises, heart races, blood pressure skyrockets, respiration becomes rapid and shallow, the brain fires bursts of electrical impulses from nowhere to nowhere, and secretions spit out of every gland, and the muscles tense and spasm like you're lifting three times your body weight. It's violent. It's ugly. And it's messy. And if God hadn't made it UNBELIEVABLY fun, the human race would have died out eons ago. [She pauses to catch her breath] Dr. Robert Chase: [He is speechless] Dr. Cameron: Men are lucky they can only have one orgasm. Know that women can have an hour long orgasm? Dr. Eric Foreman: [enters] Dr. Cameron: [as if nothing had just occurred] Hey Foreman. What's up?
total count: -lost glasses (mine) -lost shoes (krystal) -catching a story told t-shirt -moshing/crowdsurfing/fighting -seeing senses fail in person was the sex -my american heart playing as a side band was awesome too -my chemical romance's lead singer getting punched -him saying "THIS IS THE BEST FUCKIN CONCERT SO FAR! AND YOU PUNCH LIKE A PUSSY" -richie being able to see the used personally(DIE RICHIE!) -being in an overly crowded moshpit nearly suffocating -buying a senses fail tshirt ($15) -the entire 6 hours
people who didn't go to taste of chaos. sorry you guys missed out so badly. people who did, that was the most awesome concert ever.
underoath tickets selling for $13. anyone want to come?
School was great. Ended up arguing about religion and whatnot with lcg. she's adorable because she's so naive. she's looking at the world as if everything is filled with flowers and love.
taste of chaos in a fwe days. yae! haha.
i have a new storyline. i would love it if jon would draw everything while i make the storyline. roughly as an outline it's about a girl who believes in supersititon and living her life in fear. although it may seem like every other mainstream storyline. eh.
i'm gonna cosplay as a group. yae. I'm going to be Misa and Jon's gonna be L. We just need a Raito and we're complete. Haha. Yae.
so apparently i'm going to dances these ways.
junior prom - april 15 - mhs - with andy herrera
junior prom - april 30 - mitty - with monica lee
senior ball - god knows when - mhs - with david kilgore
same dress for all 3 dates. oh man. so much money. haha. oh wells. :D DANCE BABY DANCE!
people are like chameleons... constantly changing their outlooks, their hides. to fit the time and day. to blend into their environment. survival of the fittest, they say what nonsense they speak they tell me that they are like every other person and that every other person is every other one so chameleons we constantly be never knowing how we really are. what fools these mortals be
Less than a week 'till Taste of Chaos. suprise suprise. constanty eye checkups. if these keeps up i'm going to start thinking i'm going to go blind in one eye. three eye appointments within 2 weeks.
So Jon got me into a new manga called Death Note. It's pretty good. Plot being genius vs. genius. Good manga. Jon and I and a bunch of other people were supposed to cosplay for it but Jon cut his hair so he can't be L anymore. Le sigh.
So I'm going to the Taste of Chaos concert. Moshpit and crowdsurfing and the whatnot. Justine, Jon, David, me and maybe Krystal will be going. It'll be fun. March 28. If you guys are going call me up so we can meet up and just hang out afterwards. I'm waiting to go to a Fall Out Boy and a From Autumn to Ashes show. New band that's good. Dead after 8.
So I showed Lancy how Alvin looks now and she was like "He doesn't look as geeky and I don't hate him" haha. Remember how you said you thought she hated you Alvin? She doesn't. She just thought you were annoying. You were mean back then insulting me at the spring play. Haha. Besides that Sunmee who was done with the classwork at the time saw Alvin was like *jaw drop* omg he's hot. That's Angel's date? *two thumbs up* Haha. It was funny. Seeing girls reaction. Lancy: Dude, we both need to go back to Taiwan to take those pictures.
A lot of people are fake at school. They wear clothes that are "in at the time" and then discard it later because it's not in fashion. Damn scene kids. People that listen to music but don't take the time to know who they're listening to. And when they speak nonsense comes out of their mouths. People never really mean what they say.
"Oh, that's a nice shirt" says one. When you know that person is wearing the ugliest damn shirt you have ever seen and they ask for your "honest opinion" you give them a "little white lie". If it's ugly then it's ugly. Tell them. Don't be phony. It's disgusting to watch people do that.
I might be meaner since middle school. I'm not sure. People are horrible. They are monsters constantly feeding on other peoples insecurities. Saying "I'm so ugly" when in reality they're waiting for the "Omg *insert name here* of course you're not. You're so pretty." People always need to be satisfied with compliments. But what can I really say? I'm like every other person that I speak of. Always a hypocrite because I'm like others. Living off compliments, eating it greedily. I accept myself as how other people accept me. I have become molded after what people say I am. I'm so fake that when I look in the mirror I can't really see who I am anymore. Do I have goals? I'm not quite sure anymore. Am I pretty? Does it really matter if you have an awesome personanility?
Friends that appreciate you for who you are. I'm glad for friends like Monica that when I know "Pauline, I love you" I know that they mean it. It's not fake.
People, and their fakeness. We're clowns. The lot of us. Soon, we'll bring the destruction of the world with our fakeness. The world has grown too evil and I'm just a supporter. Another person contributing to this general evil.
Kurt Vonnegut "Welcome to the Monkey House" was a great book. One with insight about the end of the world. I agree. The world will die out of self centeredness and science.
So today was a bitch. It wasn't the best day and I ruined it because I couldn't talk. I had to rely on pen and paper and whispering. And it wasn't even a sultry whisper. It was more like raspy. Thinking about it makes me pissed off.
so sat's pissed me off partially because i didn't get to write the last sentence for my essay. I mean really now it was my last sentence. C'mon now. One conclusion sentence and I would've been done.
Then I met up with George and Sergio. At first it was fine. It was mostly me not being able to talk and Sergio listening to what I was whispering. He's good at deciphering body language and we walked to the Hilton where I was starving. I swear my tummy grumbled more than 10 times. We waited at the Hilton x minutes and then waited some more. It began to get more dull but the real killer was when we get faulty information about in and out from the hotel concierge.
so we walked around downtown san jose and we met up with chito and matt and the rest of the fanime people. it was ok at first but then sergio got really down. i felt horrible but insanely happy (because of the chocolate). I hit George about 20 times (I'm exaggerating) and Sergio quite a few times. Chocolate does things to me it shouldn't. Anyway we just hung around and I met some new people which is always cool. I didn't like the fact though it was a meeting. I thought we were just going to hang out and have fun or playsome games or something. Oh wells. There's always next time and trust me there will be a next time. Btw, I'm sorry Sergio. But whatever Geroge said I would've done it anyway before I left. You know that. Btw your hair smells so awesome. <3
Came home knockedout and fell asleep and I woke up around 9ish. Haha. so tierd. and stressed but that's ok. everything is okie dokie pokie.
ok. so today was rather interesting. things happen to me when i'm sick.
apparently jasmine traded with tyler for the decade report in history. But the real problem was she lied to tyler and said that the rest of the group was ok with them trading spaces. We don't want Jasmine. We wanted Tyler, which was the original reason why he was in our group to begin with. i got pissed off and andy couldn't do much of anything yesterday so I decided to take matters into my own hands. I ended up scaring Jasmine shitless and now she won't go near 20 feet of me. I haven't seen her since I left second period. I called her a bitch, snobbish, rude, a brat, and everything that can be called under the sun. I also said "I swear if you piss me off even more I will personally bring you down" like it was some cheesy/corny movie. I was pretty mad and then later on she complained and asked why I was mad at her.
so now andy laughs and calls me "mrs. i'm going to take you down" and pretty much a good part of my friends know about it.
"Eh, Pauline's scary when she's sick" they say. I think otherwise.
i suck at making icons. do any of you guys think that you can help me with it? Por Favor. I made a background already but i need to transfer chopsticks into it. If you guys can do photoshop message me and help me out.
btw. i'm making a rating community. it's called utensil_shop. :o if you guys are great at making layouts and could help me with adobe photoshop and the whatnot im me/message me/e-mail me. i need two other mods besides moi. danke.
yeah. i joined the craze of rating communities. so what? haha. i don't think i'm going to be able to join tea_bar so might as well make my own and throw my anger at people that are ugly. that was totally mean but who cares? i'm pauline. ;] haha.
i'm so pitiful i make myself laugh. ah, the irony of it all.
Found the tickets to Junior Prom. Andy's paying for it all. $90 + everything else. I feel sort of bad. I offered to pay for half or something but he's too chivalrous. He insists that he pays everything. *shrugs* I didn't know what to say. He is too nice, if there's such a thing.
I'm not sure if I'm going to Senior Ball with DK. Last time he was like "you can go with david (double d) if you want to". I wasn't sure if he was joking or not and after our current argument that we settled today i'm not sure we're going together. i'll ask him soon if we are or not.
This senior guy in my spanish class was joking about how he needed a date to senior ball. I was over their side of the room to talk to janelle about one of the outfits I was designing when he asked me jokingly if i wanted to go with him. Well, at least I thought he was asking me jokingly. I told him I was going with someone already. He "jokingly" said that he'd hurt the guys so he could go with me. It was really corny and Janelle and I swapped glances like "wTf?" haha. it was funny.
Anna hearing that I was going to go with DK brung up the subject about him. I guess we talked about him for the rest of the class period and she mentioned his xanga and how he writes about me. In general we were just talking about how great of a dancer/beat-boxer he was and what kind of girls dk likes. so that class was ok. it wasn't like we did anything that was knowledge-worthy.
I took justine's measurements today so i can start making the application outfit for FIDM. Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising. All I need now are the fabric and I'm good to go.
Andy walked me to nob hills so we could walk and talk. i realize i abuse him a lot and put him down rather quite a bit. i feel horrible everytime i tease him. it's all good though. he lets me tease him. he's nice like that. he's the kind of guy you could "fall" in love with. He's devoted. I'll give him that much.
James was wearing his Senses Fail t-shirt. I absolutely adore him wearing concert t-shirts. He's cute with them. We were talking about the taste of chaos concert that i wanted to get to and we ended up talking about music. that's probably the only thing i can talk to him without us getting mad at each other about things that happened between us in the past. he still likes me. he and i both know that. and underneath it all i believe that i love him too. he was my "first real boyfriend" if there is such a thing. you will always harbor feelings for them i think. we talked about hanging out one day. maybe at the park like we used to and just watch the sun set. he's quite the romantic if i rememeber correctly.
i went to the optometrist today. they said my right eye is worse than my left. so i'm getting new contacts and we're talking about getting me some glasses so when i feel lazy i could just wear those instead of my contacts. i was ecstatic. the glasses i want are either vogue, dolce&gabana, DKNY, or Burberry. (yeah, i know. I didn't know that Burberry were selling glasses.) So now I won't be as blind without my contacts.
Jon lost my beanie. I'm sad. The "Pauline Hat" is officially gone. I might have to go back to San Francisco to get myself a new beanie. *sighs* so ends the reign of the pauline hat.
fanime is stressful. but all in all the day came out great. i am satisfied with myself.
Haha. So I got a cellphone. It's actually a lot more complicated than that. My cousin wanted this sweet cell phone that costs about $199 so since I'm getting the plan she chose the cellphone which is provided in the picture below.
In exchange of her getting her cellphone and me using her old cellphone she pays for my first month of usage+activation fee. Sweetness. :D And this is the phone I'm going to get after this month.
can't wait till next month. waiting. waiting. :D till then i get her old cam phone. haha